Great granny (my mum's father's mother) passed away peacefully last week on 13th May at a ripe old age of 96.
I was busy attending the wake, so din log in to blog abt it rite away. Chinese tradition has it that its a taboo to attend "bai shi" of any sorts when u r preggy. But well, i did attend the 5 days wake everyday. I wasn't allowed to offer any joss sticks and send her on her last journey ("chu bin"). My mum's pantang abt it. Actually they are alr quite lenient. If they wana adhere to the strict rules, u gotta tie a red string around ur tummy etc etc..too many rules to follow n list....
I feel its a blessing for great granny to join her husband, bcos she has been bed ridden for 15 over yrs since she suffered fr a stroke..Great grandpa passed away when I was in pri sch...Imagine her lonliness. Its quite a sad case when she has 9 children of which 1 passed away (which is my grandpa) and nobody really visited her when she was sick all these yrs.....only the youngest daughter took care of her. And when the time for her has come, children argued abt where to held her funeral and the monetary matters...
So is a big family really a blessing? "yang er fan lao" is it really true?
Rie then start telling me wat kinda funeral he wants when he died and that he wants to be cremated...I dun wana hear! But he said it as a matter of fact becos he said nobody knows wat will happen the next min...
But being a selfish person...I told him I want to go off earlier then him, cos I'm afraid of lonliness. I dun wana grow old alone................
Haiz...wat a sad blog entry, but that's part n parcel of life....we gotta deal w it one day...
I hope dat one day will be far away...when I'm more mature enuff to accept the death of my closest kins...
Papa, Mama, Gorgor, Gigi, Rie and my 2 children......I Love ya all.......