1 holiday and 2 funerals

We went to Bali on the 28/6. A couple trip with the rest of the sistas. We had it planned several months ago. Sadly....my grandmother passed away on the 29/6. We went back to SG on the 1st and fetch the kids to Ayer Tawar.

Then on the 2/7, Rie's grandmother passed away. Such coincidence.......Regrettably,  we can't attend Rie's granny funeral and were greatly sadden by the departure of all our loved ones. May they find a better place in heaven.. We will miss you both...

Sharing some pic of the Bali Villa. It is a 4 room 2 storey villa with a pool and jacuzzi.

 

 

 

A restaurant near our villa.

 

 

Chilling out at potato head

 

Having fun at Madonna Cafe playing Monopoly!

 

 Realaxing at Jacuzzi

 

Jumpshots at the seaside~

 

 

 

Kirsten is very shy and doesnt really blend in well at my Granny's wake, She is scared of the extended cousins and relatives. I do hope that she can overcme her fear and shyness soon. U can do it baby!

Farewell Reyna...

We woke up to bad news on the 15th April, Reyna met with a car accident and passed on. We were shocked n in disbelief.

Life is really unpredictable. Just as when we get complacent, god takes things away from us. We really wont know what will happen next..treasure everyone n everything everyday as if its the last..at least, we will leave with no regrets.

Reyna, though we werent the closest of besties...but you r always my fav mj khaki n fren. We will take care of lil Chloe and help Terence to move on.. May you find peace at the other world n bless them with ever good fortune. Till we meet again ....Goodbye~

Into 2011~

Time flies real fast. I remember my last year resolution was to be a good mummy to both my girls... (I hope I'm doing well!)
Best achievement cum personal satisfaction by far is giving birth to Klaire without the help of epidural. I really feel great! Never been better!

I welcomed 2011 with Rie, Jiahe n Cavis at BKK. But just before leaving for BKK, we recieved the news that a good fren was lost to the sea. It was really overwhelming I've nvr cried so hard for a long time. This is the 2nd time I lost a dear friend. Treasuring our love ones is always important and my new year resolution in years to come will always be " Treat all my love ones like nvr before"



Tmr will be the last day of lunar calender year. I look forward to bring my 2 darlings out and have fun on CNY. will post out pics of our adventure. Happy Rabbit Year to everyone in advance~ Huat ah!!

Motherhood...

I thank god everyday for blessing me with 2 lovely girls and a wonderful husband. I'm truly spoilt rotten by my husband and I in return, gave him my unconditional love...

I've always try to pen down progresses of my lil girls, happy things, happy thoughts and happy occasions in this journal...but of cos under all the colorful facade, there's bound to be unhappiness, fears and tears. As I would like to present this journal to my girls as a gift in the future, I would like them to remember the pleasant things....

I did vent out my frustrations too, guess its the way i let out steam..stifling all the unhappiness inside you will be more hazardous. So writing is a way to destress, (So my girls, pls rem this method as it will also improve your English and writing skills. haha)

Now going into the topic that I wana touch on....I have mixed feelings...

Stepping into motherhood has changed me from a girl to a woman. I have become more responsible n patient. But not 100% responsible and patient.

Sometimes I do fail as a mother, I dun bathe my girls personally, I dun breastfeed totally, I seldom clear their diapers and etc etc..I feel guilty, very.....But I do make it up by reading to them, playing with them and giving them my utmost love and attention when I'm with them. I salute SAHM totally. Their patience is superb! I ever tried to forgo career to focus on kids..but I guess for me, I feel better to be in touch with the workforce, I like to be financially independent or rather.....sad to admit. I dun tink I can face the kids 24/7. I need "me" time and couplehood time, which to a certain extent is consider selfish...

 

So my children...Pls bear in mind that Mummy loves both of you totally. More then anything else in the world. Pls forgive Mummy for not being perfect. Mummy is learning, and ever trying to be the perfect Mummy to both of you in my imperfections...

 

Loving our family always....

Mummy,,,

 

 

Updates..

Dear Kirsten & Klaire,

Mummy's been really busy...........

Now that Audace is up n going...Mummy's been busy sourcing for a shop front with Daddy for his maid agency. Daddy has more or less set his sight on a shop in Katong Shopping Center. It will be a Khoo family Joint Venture. Mummy has done her part by getting a license for employment agencies last year. Now its Daddy's turn to do his part. To do all the operations and set up and get the business going! Ideal Domestic Station should be coming ur way soon. Dear readers...Pls Support!!

After which..when godmummy is more free(she's very tied up w wrk rite now), we shall begin our another project. Joli Sparkles.. an online blogshop for handmade items for babies n kids..

Lets all Jiayou! Its really a busy n fulfilling yr for mummy!

Kirs darling is jiayou-ing (lol, if there's such word) by walking steadily now n exploring more n more new stuffs..I'm so happy and amused by her new patterns every now n then...

On the other hand, Klaire baby is also jiayou-ing by growing well. Mummy's feeling soreness at the pelvic region n have difficulty walkin wout feeling painful, so I've decided to visit the gynae today.

Review:

At 32 weeks. Klaire bb was breeched.
Today she has turned...well done baby!

Weighs 2.5kg.
Did V.E, not yet dilated. Still some time to go. Dr explained the soreness may be due to lower womb ( as this is my 2nd bb) or muscle stretching. So well..I just have to bear with it..

Next appt 6/8/10.

Start of my maternity leave ...10/8/10

Love,
Mummy

Shaken Baby Syndrome

Very sadden by the news lately that a baby died because of Shaken Baby Syndrome. Her daddy was jailed bcos of this.....I guess no parents would want this to happen.

I also recieved an email regarding another case of this and the pics of the mummy n baby are really too much to bear. So I will not post the pics here. But if you really are interested to know and see for yourself, pls leave ur email addy and I can email you.

To create awareness, I will share with mummies or MTBs wat's SBS.......

For those of you who dont know what Shaken Baby Syndrome check out the facts ;

-Shaking, jerking and jolting can cause blood vessels in the head to tear or burst.

Shaken Baby Syndrome is the shaking of an infant or child by the arms, legs, or shoulders with or without impact of the head. This trauma can result in bleeding and brain injury with no outward signs of abuse

Often frustrated caregivers feel that shaking a baby or small child is a harmless way to make the child stop crying. However, a baby's brain and blood vessels are vulnerable to whiplash motions, such as shaking, jerking, jolting, and impact.

The neck muscles of an infant or small child are weak, so the child's head is relatively heavy and the neck cannot support the stress of shaking or impact.

-Shaking a very young child, with or without impact of the head, can cause irreversible brain damage, blindness, cerebral palsy, hearing loss, spinal cord injury, seizures, learning disabilities, and even death.

It is tragic that healthy, intelligent babies are suffering these disabilities simply because their caregivers don't know about the dangers associated with Shaken Baby Syndrome

An estimated 1,200 to 1,400 cases of Shaken Baby Syndrome (SBS) occur each year in the United States .

Only 1 out of 4 babies dies of Shaken Baby Syndrome

HOWEVER, the other three babies will need ongoing medical attention for the rest of their short lifespans

Moody

Feeling extremely moody. F the man who makes me feel this way. Hot tears welled up in my eyes but I can't tear. & bb klaire's constant kicking, shifting & stretching aint helping.

I seek solace.. I yearn for the day for my hormones to be back to their origins. They r making me emo, cranky n sobby. Pls free me of the fatigue, the emotional roller coaster n the mental torture. Yes I'm crazy. I hate myself like this. Wallowing in self pity. But who'll pity u? Love urself so others love u too. Nah, spare me. Lemme be A demon for a day. Let ugly tots, angry tots, selfish tots filled my mind. Let me feel that I'm the most worst off person in the world! ";(&@&$)(?!'

so ass off w k. Let ur big philosophy die w u. Dun come n preach me n interfere my life. U dun understand wat I'm gg thru. Go get preggy urself n get a life. I dun need it. Period.

I'm a Happy & Blessed Woman!

Jus this week, I was telling Rie I need to buy a new wallet. My red long Prada has proved its worth for 7 yrs and my white and beige small Dior wallet for 4 yrs is really dirty...So I started to source online for any new designs fr the major brands..I intend to get 1 for myself as a bonus pressie....

So yest, after bringing Kirs for jalan jalan, bought her bday presents and settling her at hm, I drag him to Orchard at 830pm.Yes, I'm dat impatient...want means want...keke

We visited MiuMiu, Prada, LV, Kate Spade n Longchamp. I only have eyes for the MiuMiu brown wallet. So it is in my wishlist and I will buy it during weekend or on Fri (Cos I'm on leave!!)

BUT.........................................

Surprise, Surprise, Surprise!! When I reached hm today, I saw the MiuMiu paperbag on the table! He bought it for ME!!!!!! So delighted!! I did not expect it at all! I was just telling him yest dat in our 6 yrs tog, he has nvr buy me a wallet and I got him 3....

I m so touched by his sweet gesture dat i took pix rite away using my iphone (dat explains the shadow cast).

Thanks Rie, I know u care n u heart me... I heart u too.....

And also presenting my "Push Pressies".... That is the "reward" I get fr him for losing my body shape and gog thru labour pains.

v^_^v The Feragamo bag I got in 2009 when I had Kirs....

The MiuMiu bag I got in 2010 for having Klaire....

Words cannot express how I feel....Thanks Rie..I LUB U!!!!!!!! n my babies n my bags too...wahahahaha

RIP Great Grandma....

Great granny (my mum's father's mother) passed away peacefully last week on 13th May at a ripe old age of 96.
I was busy attending the wake, so din log in to blog abt it rite away. Chinese tradition has it that its a taboo to attend "bai shi" of any sorts when u r preggy. But well, i did attend the 5 days wake everyday. I wasn't allowed to offer any joss sticks and send her on her last journey ("chu bin"). My mum's pantang abt it. Actually they are alr quite lenient. If they wana adhere to the strict rules, u gotta tie a red string around ur tummy etc etc..too many rules to follow n list....

I feel its a blessing for great granny to join her husband, bcos she has been bed ridden for 15 over yrs since she suffered fr a stroke..Great grandpa passed away when I was in pri sch...Imagine her lonliness. Its quite a sad case when she has 9 children of which 1 passed away (which is my grandpa) and nobody really visited her when she was sick all these yrs.....only the youngest daughter took care of her. And when the time for her has come, children argued abt where to held her funeral and the monetary matters...
So is a big family really a blessing? "yang er fan lao" is it really true?

Rie then start telling me wat kinda funeral he wants when he died and that he wants to be cremated...I dun wana hear! But he said it as a matter of fact becos he said nobody knows wat will happen the next min...
But being a selfish person...I told him I want to go off earlier then him, cos I'm afraid of lonliness. I dun wana grow old alone................

Haiz...wat a sad blog entry, but that's part n parcel of life....we gotta deal w it one day...

I hope dat one day will be far away...when I'm more mature enuff to accept the death of my closest kins...
Papa, Mama, Gorgor, Gigi, Rie and my 2 children......I Love ya all.......

Women....

Saw a meaningful quote in fb yesterday....Took a min to read and think abt it.....
How True!!
Rie shld read it and appreciate me more...lol

"Whatever u give a woman, she will make it greater. Give her sperm,she will give u a baby. Give her a house,she will give u a home. Give her groceries,she will give u a meal. Give her a smile and she will give u her heart. She multiplies and enlarges what she is given.So if u give her crap,be ready to receive a ton of shit. ..."

Btw, I've changed my blog address.

http://www.kirsklaire.blogspot.com/

Back to Workforce

Rested for abt half a year..I did enjoyed my time off..but towards the end, I started to get bored..cos as a property advisor, the bz period is only weekend...i idle alot during weekdays...hurhur

And i cant spend like how I used to last time, (No spending power! ) and kirs is well taken care off even wout me..
Wanted to look for jobs in different trade, but NONE called me up! Kaoz... Back to old bizness then..I've joined Daikin as Sales Engineer. (hello ION here i come! I can shop n shop again!)

Anyway it sets me tinking...When Kirs is gog for her degree or diploma, Shld she go for a general one like marketing and bizness (cos she can go to any trade that she has passion for) or a specialised one like engineering, accountancy etc (may = to more pay). So it means she must have a goal before deciding. If she have none, then better to get a general degree, but if she have interest in a specialised field, it'll be a bonus! Or else she'll be stuck in a job w no passion...

Okay, I was offered the day after i went for the interview! Cool! I believe my Kirsten is my lucky charm..yeah! time to wrk hard.....

Thank you!

We are truly blessed...recieved lots of beautiful gifts, ang baos n well wishes from relatives n frens for the birth of my lil girl. The list is long.... so West and I sincerely thank all for ur generousity and kindness...

During my hosp stay, lotsa hampers were recieved! I benefitted from the many tonics and Kirs baby has more chio chio new clothes and accessories!

My ex company, Paet Engineering bought a playpen! now placed in my mom's room..so Kirs can slp there in the nite.

Back at home, we have more visitors and more gifts.....

Uncle Chuan and auntie Jasmine are gog USA to work for 2 yrs. Leaving mth end so cant attend her baby shower. So they got her a fisher price toy in advance!

Uncle Patrick was back home for the last weekend and gotta go back to M'sia to work. Cant attend the baby shower too. So he got Kirs more clothes!

Auntie Cavis painstakingly did hairbands, clippies and bibs for Kirs..100% handmade!

Rie's colleague, Micheal gave Kirs a pendant...

My Mom, Wai Po, bought Kirs an anklet and a necklace..

I hereby wana thank Rie too, for his moral support and love..Thou he cant help much in the general duties of taking care of Kirs, he is here for us and tries his best to do what he can. He forgo MOST (not all) of his leisure times, and just stay hm or runs errands for us. During this vulnerable period...his plain existence means alot to me..it means I have someone to rely on and cheer me on when i feel low....Thanks Rie, I lub u..muacks...

Last but not least, I wana thank my MOM!

She's the best mom in the world! helping me to do confinement and taking care of the lil one....it has been ages since she take care of a newborn and she's trying and learning. On top of that, she needs to take care of my meals and well being. And worse of all, I'll throw tantrums at her.. cos she'll remind me to drink chix essense, bird's nest n dom everyday... i find it nagging and always try to siam...When I cant bathe and have to eat and do the same routine everyday, I'm easily irritable and jus likes to retort back whatever things she asks me.... When she sees me..its always " Want to eat anything?" I know she meant well..and tinkin back, I feel real real guilty..

Actually I'm very fortunate, cos bb slps w her in the nite. She has to wake up in the middle of the nite to give her nite feeds while I can have ample rest and can slp thru out the nite.. She's really more tired then I am....

And because newton's store is shorthanded, sometimes she still help out in the weekend. When she comes back in the wee hours, she still cant slp in peace cos Kirs will be brought to her room, and any crying means she gotta wake up and attend to her...The things she did for me are too long to list.....but it sets me tinking....

A mom's love for her child is so generous n kind. Thanks Mommy, I lub u...I hope I can be a great mommy like u too...

Blues..

Touching my 34th weeks today...

Feeling lousy...steppin further into the 3rd tri is like the ballooning of my belly n face...Other then that I feel bloated, dread my messy, uneven tone and wavy hairs... Jus seriously feel very unkept. Thou rie is very supportive. Assured me in every single ways that I still look good and desirable..haha.. BUT! I know what i see in the mirror..

Wonder if it's the prenatal jitteries....

Shoppin on Sunday doesnt really help...1st of all, i keep wearing the same old few maternity wear....yeeks! Seeing so many slim n trendy gers in town make me feel so "auntie" and plump...Ahhh the many sacrifices a mummy has to go thru...I wonder to myself "M i really ready?" Dats a selfish tot..no doubt abt it...but well..the commitments n responsilities are overwhelming! There'll be no more jus me n rie...it will be us! no freedom no splurging... Will i get my pre-preggie weight back? will I be able to go tour as n when i feel like it?Will i be able to go parties and dance like no tmr?all the will i be able to?

I need retail therapy!....yes..the little space tat belong to me dat i find consolation in....i splurge once again tinking to myself this will be the last bag b4 kirs comes out...adding to my collection, a Marc jacob ..heart it!